I replied “Actually I loved it. You should get it. You KNOW it would probably be $300 in NYC!!” We both laughed.
Soon after I realized how she and I even in jest, almost welcomed what I call the consumption klesha. A pattern of constantly grasping & consuming stuff, be it to put on us or inside us. And how the mind creates the reasoning to invite a pattern that we find so irresistible, even if at times destructive.
Shantideva, in his sacred text the Way of The Bodhisattva, speaks of how we often welcome our mental afflictions (kleshas). In her discussion of this ancient text*, the Buddhist teacher Pema Chödrön elaborates on how we welcome our mental afflictions because they set off a chain reaction within us that is ‘predictable’, ‘familiar’, at times even comforting or empowering, however contaminated we may feel after.
Understanding the subtle ways in which we lay fertile ground for our mental afflictions helps us undercut their power over us, as we recognize the trap our mind sets up for us before stepping into it.
* Pema Chödrön’s No Time To Lose